Why Not Just Leave?
For many years after I stopped believing in Mormonism, I continued to attend regularly. Many friends who were not Mormon asked me why I was doing this. It was a hard thing to explain, but I’m going to try to now.
It was unfathomable for me to not be Mormon anymore. My parents, siblings, nieces and nephews, my own children, husband, and in-laws, were all still Mormon. How could I do anything else? I just couldn’t see how, even though I’d had two sisters who exited Mormonism in the fifteen years leading to my own disaffection.