The Slow, Dark Weight of Depression

I had never been truly depressed before I faced deep grief with my daughter’s death sixteen years ago. Then it was an unpleasant revelation to experience. I sometimes slept badly, waking in the middle of the night and unable to go back to sleep…

When Your Brain Is Lying to You

One of the hardest things a depressed person must fight through is their own brain lying to them. When I first had depression, I had never really experienced my brain lying to me. I mean, of course I had. I’d been wrong plenty…

The Limits of Medication and Therapy

Whenever I talk about my depression, the immediate response I get is people saying I need a good therapist and some medication. Sometimes they suggest a particular medication that helped them or someone they knew. But I will tell you that from my side…

What to Say to a Depressed Person

Once, when I was very close to the end of my rope, I talked to my sister about how I felt sure that no one would care if I was gone. It’s hard to talk to a depressed person when their brain is…

What Depression Has to Teach You

Sometimes the only thing depression has to teach you is that it’s awful to be depressed and medication can help you with that. But often depression has a lot more to teach you. I hate this reality. If you are saying to yourself right…

How to Be Brave

People have told me a lot over the last few years how brave I am. Since I started writing about my daughter’s death and about my suicidal ideation that followed, and then about my loss of faith and eventual rejection of my lifetime church associations:

“You…

It Will Get Better

“It will get better.” I hear this a lot from people when I talk about how difficult my life currently is, in the midst of a divorce that seems like it will never end, scrambling to try to build a new life for myself after my…

Why would I give advice about something that I’ve done so badly? Because I think I may have made every mistake in the book and if I haven’t made them, I’ve watched other people close to me make them. The best teacher is a bad student, isn’t that what they…

This is advice for people who have limited experience in open water swimming, but who are planning to do a first or second open water race and want some pointers from an experienced swimmer. I swam on the team in high school for three years, for five hours a day…

How to Do Your First Ironman — Part Three

I’ve completed ten Ironman distance races now (DNF’d at one, as well) and while I’m not a professional, I consider myself an experienced amateur and therefore perhaps even better situated to help talk through how to do your first Ironman than…

Mette Harrison

Author of The Bishop’s Wife mystery series, The Mormon Sabbatical Podcast, Princeton PhD, fiction editor at Exponent II, autist, she/her

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