I’m So Angry
I’m angry about rape culture. Let me just take a moment to explain what rape culture is. Rape culture is the assumption that men are natural rapists and that it’s up to women to make sure that men don’t rape them. So, don’t wear skimpy clothing. Don’t drink at bars. Don’t walk alone at night. Don’t say anything suggestive. Don’t invite a man back to your apartment. Don’t, don’t, don’t. All the rules are for women.
Why would it be so ridiculous to say to men — don’t go out at night because it’s dangerous for you…
I’m So Tired
I’m tired. You want to know why I’m so tired at the end (I hope) of a pandemic where women took the brunt of all the extra home labor that had to be done? Where women lost most of the jobs because they couldn’t do everything? Where women, who have been managing kids around home jobs for centuries, get ignored when men have cute Zoom moments where the toddler stops in for a moment before being whisked away by Mom?
Its because women still do most of the childcare and housework in the world. But yay for…
Giving Up Love-Bombing
There’s a lot of talk in the post-Mormon world about how to rebuild “community.” Mormons do community well, that’s what they say. And in some ways, it is true. No matter where you move in the world, it seems, there is a Mormon ward to greet you. They will likely help you move in (actually physically carrying boxes for you), bring you casseroles, and greet you with smiling faces when you show up to church on Sunday. They’ll also be quick to put you to work with callings in the ward that will help you feel integrated…
I’ve been watching scenes of happy celebration around the country, as Democrats rejoice over Biden’s final, late-called victory. I’m a registered Republican who voted Hilary in 2016 and Biden in 2020. Maybe I’m a Democrat now. I don’t know. Certainly most of the Republicans in Utah would say that I’m not a “real” Republican. But I find it very difficult to feel anything like celebratory excitement right now. I wish I could. I don’t think it’s because of Biden. It’s because of Trump.
In 2016, when the election was called for Trump, I wasn’t one of those people who went…
I’m a Proud Covenant-Breaker
Sometimes when I openly admit that I’m a covenant breaker, other ex-Mormons interrupt me and insist that I’m not. A covenant, they argue, doesn’t count if you didn’t really understand what the covenant was going to be. Since you didn’t know what was going to happen in the temple and you were so pressured into saying yes to everything in the temple, you aren’t the one breaking the covenant, the Mormon church is. The Mormon church lied about its history, lied about its power and priesthood, lied about being the only true church on the earth…
After spending nearly fifty years of my life as a Mormon woman, I find myself trying to figure out who I am now. So much of my identity was swallowed up in my Mormonness. I look back and wonder what other choices I might have made if I had not been Mormon. The movie Sliding Doors is about a completely insignificant moment of a sliding door that closed and the two different lives for the same woman that might have happened as a result of the two outcomes. I can think of a thousand different moments in my life that…
Ex-Mormon Women and Lasting Financial Disparities
I’ve written before about the on-going problem of structures of Mormonism remaining for those who leave Mormonism, and this is another one that it seems many ex-Mormon women see clearly and ex-Mormon men do not see at all. It is a painful reality of leaving Mormonism that it is difficult to undo the external and internal assumptions of church culture and doctrine that are so deeply embedded that we do not realize they are there. …
Satan’s Plan of Mormonism
Mormonism teaches that Satan and Jesus both presented plans to the assembled spirits who were God’s children in the premortal life. Satan’s plan was to force everyone to choose what was right, so that no one would be lost, and all would return to God’s kingdom after a mortal life. Jesus’s plan was to allow free agency, so that we could all choose right or wrong, and make mistakes and learn from them. Jesus’s plan required a savior who would come and make the ultimate sacrifice, an eternal Atonement that would allow us to be free…
John Dehlin has asked repeatedly why it is that he is most vociferously critiqued by other ex-Mormons, rather than by Mormons. One answer to this is fairly simple, that most Mormons don’t follow him and if angry at him, tend toward passive-aggressive remarks and certainly no cursing. Ex-Mormons, however, have no such restraint or need for niceness, and some of us are still figuring out how much cursing and which curse words are the best ones to use for our apparent constant state of anger post-Mormonism. …
Happiness Cults
Mormonism loudly touts its “Plan of Happiness,” as well as its general “clean living” to the world as proof of how good it is as a religion (and sometimes as proof that it is “the one true church” as it claims in missionary efforts). It wasn’t until recently that I began to suspect that the promise of happiness is actual a symptom of a kind of cult-like behavior. On the one hand, the insistence that Mormons must be happy often leads us (in particular women) to put on false masks of happy faces to prove that our religion…
Mette Harrison
Author of The Bishop’s Wife mystery series, The Mormon Sabbatical Podcast, Princeton PhD, fiction editor at Exponent II, autist, she/her
